When There is so much Love, There is so Much Pain.

The love and the pain, give paradoxical effect to us. Well, guys please don't get me wrong... I'm not in love or something. This is not a romance story either. Apparently, I should appologize to all ( especially to romance story lovers), for such bombastic tittle that has nothing to do with boy-girl love story at all. Anyhow, love does not necessarily mean that kind of relationship because everyone knows that this word is so universal in nature. But, what I intend to tell is my passion in opthalmology that has grown into love. The passion is so deep that I just want to give my best, of which, of course to certain extent give so much tense into my mind. And I would like to share this feeling of mine with somebody because I'm going crazy if I not.

To begin with, lately, I feel intense pain all over my body. I knew this is not normal. The tense was so much that my physiological process have been disturbed. In the morning, I din't want to open my eyes, not to mention to get up from my bed. Puzzling for myself with this kind of phenomena, I start wondering.

"Well, this must be exam stress phenomena." (Practical Opthal examination is cooming soon) My brain gave the answer. "Ok then, c' mon, wake up, go to your book and start reading, there is much more to read." But, surprisingly, my body didn't want to follow my brain instruction. Owh, my god...the more my brain keep talking, the more intense the pain was...My stubborn body got stuck almost half and hour on the bed. It just moved left and right alternately, nothing else. What a waste of time, huh????

But thanks God. I finally threw my blanket off and jumped from my bed. Anyhow, its better late than never, ya??? ( Just an excuse to please myself =P). I finally read the book....although only three pages, because I had to met HIM at 5.30 in the morning.

The moral of the story is, dont think too much about exam or that kind of stuff. From my previous experience, I know it too well that this kind of craziness and nervousness always take away the best part out of me. Last year, I was labelled as "Miss patho", but in the final exam, I didnt really perform well. Try to perform the best but turn out to be merely a mess. I somehow, already set my mind up that..I just want to be myself...just be comfort with the situation. I perform the best when I can throw out my nervousness. To be frank, I got the right answer almost for all questions that the doctor asked during posting, because the situation was too casual. So, just know the subject well and I'll do just fine. Lets see how the thing going out then.

Love and pain, that make up among the flavour of life=)

Intro: The flavour of life

This song was introduced by my friend, and although I didn't know even a single word from that lyric, but I already attracted to it at the very beginning. The singer, what I can say is, nailed this song beautifully, not only with her superb voice, but also added the flavour to this song by giving away her soul and emotion. And even till now, this is one of my favourite song to accompany me during reading. I just love this song because it represent my feeling the best. As I already change my blog's name, so let enjoy this song together=)

Pedoman diri - Bila Sabar itu lahir dari Iman=)

Kita bertanya: Mengapa aku diuji?Quran menjawab: “Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan, “Kami beriman kepada Allah sedangkan kita tidak diuji?” Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar, dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang berdusta.” Surah al-Ankabut, ayat 2-3.
Kita bertanya: Kenapa aku tak dapat apa yang aku idam-idamkan?Quran menjawab: “Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 216.
Kita bertanya: Kenapa ujian seberat ini?Quran menjawab: “Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. ” Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 286.
Kita bertanya: Mengapa kita kecewa?Quran menjawab: “Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jangan pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman.” Surah Ali Imran, ayat 139.
Kita bertanya: Bagaimana harus aku menghadapinya?Quran menjawab: “Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang, dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amat berat kecuali bagi orang-orang yang khusyuk.” Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 45.Kita bertanya:
Kepada siapa aku berharap?Quran menjawab: “Cukplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain daripadaNya. Hanya kepada Allah aku bertawakal.” Surah at-Taubah, ayat 129.
Kita bertanya: Apa yang aku dapat daripada semua ujian ini?Quran menjawab: “Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli daripada orang-orang mukmin, diri dan harta mereka dengan memberi syurga kepada mereka.” Surah at-Taubah, ayat 111.
Kita berkata: Aku tak tahan!Quran menjawab: “… dan janganlah kamu berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir.” Surah Yusuf, ayat 12.
Kita berkata: Sampai bila kau merana begini?Quran menjawab: “Kerana sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan.” Surah al-Insyirah, ayat 5-6.